Friday, August 30, 2013


Let me  tell you that my life is crazy,  I think that I am not stressed, sure there have been alot of changes over the last 4 months, sure I have been busy, yes menopause is kicking my butt right now, but my blood pressure as of Wednesday was 110/68 and a low pulse rate, does this sound like a really stressed out person to you. This morning I had a experience at the office, I thought I was having a stroke or a aneurysm, my left eye went blurry very quickly, then it went to shiny, glittery, waves. It lasted about 10 minutes, I called Joey and told him to come to office, of course he panicked. Josh told me later that he and Audrey are so screwed if something happens to me. LOL. I called Dr and they said that since I didn't have slurred speech and no headache that unless something changed just relax and wait and see, I then called Eye Dr. and he said to come in, he believes I was having a a migraine. I have never had a migraine and neither has anyone else in my family. I had no headache just really pretty shiny spots and fog.   But at least I know he didn't see any tumors or abnormalities behind my eyes.  So to sum it all up, menopause strikes again. I sure hope this doesn't last for years, or I will be CRAZY

Friday, August 23, 2013


Cory and I are on our last discipleship meeting and it is on Obedience. As a older Christan it is good to disciple a new christian because it makes you have to stop and think through why you believe the way you do.  This younger generation will not except because that is how I was raised mind set.
They want to know why you believe it, why your parents believed what they believe and unfortunately many older generations don't know why the believe the way they do.  In this final chapter I have looked up definitions of some words, I want to make sure that Cory understands that complete obedience is expected.   Not partial because the world does not see some things as sin any longer (lies from the pit of Hell). When we walk in newness of life as a Christan our life should be changed, different, improved on daily.  Our old self is corrupt and deceitful but our new self should be righteous and holy. Our goals should be to forget the past, strive for the prized goal, think clearly while exercising self-control. When we think of witchcraft or worshipping idols most of us would say we wouldn't dare, but in I Samuel, stubbornness and rebellion are categorized in the same comparison, who among us doesn't have tendencies of stubbornness or rebellion. To partially obey is to disobey.  We are showing love for God when we do everything he tells us to do and to do it with a joyful heart.  That right there is the hardest part, there are times I know I am suppose to do something but my heart is not right, so even if I do it, it is done in disobedience. We we are obedient to God we are loved by him, we are his friend, we live (abide) in him, and we show others his love.

Thursday, August 22, 2013


If you know me at all you know that I need to stay busy. I have had a lot on my plate as of late, I now see the end of that tunnel.  I have taken up fixing up our house that has been neglected for so long.  I have wanted a new dining room chairs and table but when I came across this paint I loved how easy it was, how fast it dried and the different ways you could use it.  My sister-in-law has gone crazy redoing  her house and furniture.  Here are a few of my first..
Dining room chairs before and after

A old black lamp redone

Since this has gone so well, I will be redoing a lot of things in house.
I can't wait to see what is next

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Wedding, Cancer & Big Girl Panties

This has been a very busy weekend for us.  Audrey & I went to a beautiful wedding Saturday, my friend Cindy's youngest daughter Megan & Thad tied the knot.  He wrote and sang a song to her that was so special.  I kept thinking as he was singing that is such a perfect song, I didn't know at time he had wrote it, I guess that is why it was so perfect. Joey and Josh went to my step-nieces Jackie and Justin's wedding. Justin grew up with Megan at our old church we use to attend so we have known him as long as I have known Jackie since they were babies.  This wedding was a little different, Joey went for moral support of the grooms parents.  To say that we are not sure of this step of marriage is a understatement, but now the commitment is made, the hard work will begin.
But with the good also comes the bad, Friday one of my childhood friends came by the office to share with me that his wife has stage 3 breast cancer.  Joey had been asking all week if I had talked to Mark lately and I was going to call him that day.  Joey had been praying and didn't know what for but the Lord sent him to the office.  He asked if we would come over and Joey (is a elder at our church) anoint her with oil and pray over her and this disease.  So last night, we had a if I can say this, a wonderful time together of prayer and talking.  Barbara is a solid christian, her worry is not really about death she said people should be happy for her she will be with Jesus, she is very concerned for Mark.  Like Joey said, we men are not good left to ourselves.  So in your prayers lift them up, we are expecting a full on miracle and aren't excepting any less.
Also, I received news Monday that my Dad has cancer on his kidney.  He had his prostate removed last week because of complications and not being able to completely empty his bladder.  He was in alot of pain, so after the surgery they sent him for a sonogram to see if he had kidney stones or if they had accidentally cut something during surgery and they noticed the place on his kidney.  So Monday they called to say that it has to be removed along with the possibility of the whole kidney,  they will not know until they get into surgery what exactly will need to be taken out.
My sisters husband has been sick for over a week, sharp pains, fever and they are checking him to see if he has kidney or prostate issues.
With Moms death just 4 months ago, my sister is pretty stressed out, she does not deal with things like I do, I have a deep faith that I am vocal about and dependent on. She is quiet and reserved, doesn't discuss faith, even though I think she is a believer. She has heard and knows, only God knows the heart of everyone.
So to say that we as a family are once again bogged down with concern, Satan will not distract us.
I know that there are people who do not believe that he and his demons will try and keep you down and discouraged.  But I know that it is a daily fight against the evil kingdom of this world. I know that we have to be strong and of good courage to fight.  I know that tears will come, weariness can linger, but as I have been saying these last 6 months, we southern girls have to put on our big girl panties and deal with what is at hand....


Thursday, August 8, 2013

CS Lewis

One of our greatest allies at present is the Church itself...As for the patient when he gets to his pew and looks around he sees just the selection of his neighbors whom he has avoided.  You want to lean pretty heavily on those neighbors. Make his mind flit to and from between an expression like "the body of Christ" and the actual faces in the next pew. It matters very little of course what kind of people that next pew really contains.They could be a great warrior for Christ, no matter, you see he has a idea of "Christian" in his mind which is suppose to be spiritual but which, in fact, is largely pictorial.  Just keep everything hazy in his mind, work hard on disappointment, or anticlimax of what he thinks church is. But also remember, there in lies the danger.  If once they get through this dryness successfully, they become much less dependent on emotion and much harder to tempt....
I took this from the book "The Screwtape Letters" by C.S. Lewis written in 1942, seventy-one years ago and today the same thing is still happening.  Why do you follow Christ? Do you go to church because it was "how you were raised".  Do you think it will get you into heaven or extra jewels or crowns.  Satan is alive and strong, he knows his time is ending.  I disciple a young woman who became a Christian a little over a year ago.  I told her last week, your relationship with God is your responsibility, no one elses. I have heard, till I am sick of hearing, "I am not going to church this week, nobody will miss me anyway, I haven't heard from the pastor about my family member who was sick, So and so hurt my feelings so I will just change churches. I don't like the way that person talked to my child, so I will drop out of teaching children's church"  Nephew Wormwood and Uncle Screwtape would be proud...

Saturday, August 3, 2013


Last night Joey and I did the in-law thing.  Wesley was racing at Bowman Gray and no one else was in town to watch, Audrey is at beach with his little sister, dad and grandparents. His mom is at home in SC, Josh and family was at beach, so that left us.  I hate for any of my family to do things and no one be there to watch so we went.  It was a very long night.  Pretty boring races, but I did have entertainment throughout the whole night.  Unfortunately it was pretty sad...There was a couple there she was pretty high on something besides alcohol. He was out of control stoned out of his mind.
He couldn't sit up straight at all, he fell over a hundred times, one time I saw her tell him, honey I just want us to enjoy this together, a few minutes later he asked where they were at...DUH do you not hear the loud car engines going around the track.  He probably thought it was something in his head.
I will say I laughed because I realized at one of the moments you just can't fix stupid....We had a little boy with us, Wesley told him, Riley that is why you don't do drugs, that is what you will look like.
I realized once again, this man and his woman need Jesus.  What possess people to be so stoned out of their mind that they don't even know where they are.  This lasted the whole night from 7:30-11:30, he was on some powerful stuff. I told Joey wonder why he just don't stay home in bed. Life passed him by and he doesn't even know what happened around him. Many of us are that way, we are stoned to selfishness, life passes us by and we don't even know what is happening around us.  We are zoned into our own minds, we miss the people around us. This fellow had no idea I filmed him, his girlfriend filmed him, teenagers sitting around him filmed him.  We laughed but at the same time I realized what a very sad, sad situation this was.  He has no hope, no joy, no life. We as Christians should not be missing life around us as this fellow was. 

Friday, August 2, 2013

Harper Sure Did

This is our conversation on the phone, Harper did you go to beach and play,
"Harper sure did"

Harper are you playing with Channing (Josh calls him Chachi)
Harper Sure Did

And of course when at the beach you have to eat hot donuts,
Harper sure did
That is her new saying...Oh how I have missed her....