Scenario, Wednesday morning, Josh walks in office with Harper and says "mom you look awful," my reply "Son I feel awful." The day before I had just told my sister-in-law that I was actually feeling pretty good. Then I wake up. Could hardly hold my head up, the migraine was so bad. I don't have the migraines that effect light, mine are in lower head and neck. I feel like I need a neck brace to hold up "this big ole water head" as my sister calls it. It effects my hearing, smells, and makes my eyes and brain foggy. So I really didn't look good on Wednesday. Life after the mini-stroke and full blown menopause is still to this day kicking my tail some days. I told the Ladies Group that I lead on Wednesdays that I am starting to think that some of this is spiritual warfare because Wednesdays are a lot of times my worse days. And of course this is the day I lead Bible study. So the ladies said a prayer over me at the end of the class. How do you know what is warfare and what is nature of life?
How do you know what is consequence of your choices verses Gods will for your life at this particular time? These are deep things to think about. Like I tell my family, I have spent thousands of dollars with specialist, who still are not sure what is going on in my body, why do they think they have the answers, like maybe your not resting enough, duh! maybe its the food you eat, maybe your to stressed (because of them), maybe you need a positive attitude. I have heard it all and as I think over the harder questions I still am not sure. However the Bible says there is a season for everything.
For everything there is a season,
a time for every activity under heaven.
2 A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.
3 A time to kill and a time to heal.
A time to tear down and a time to build up.
4 A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
5 A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
6 A time to search and a time to quit searching.
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
7 A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
8 A time to love and a time to hate.
A time for war and a time for peace.