A Time for Everything

Scenario, Wednesday morning, Josh walks in office with Harper and says "mom you look awful," my reply "Son I feel awful." The day before I had just told my sister-in-law that I was actually feeling pretty good. Then I wake up. Could hardly hold my head up, the migraine was so bad. I don't have the migraines that effect light, mine are in lower head and neck. I feel like I need a neck brace to hold up "this big ole water head" as my sister calls it. It effects my hearing, smells, and makes my eyes and brain foggy. So I really didn't look good on Wednesday.  Life after the mini-stroke and full blown menopause is still to this day  kicking my tail some days.  I told the Ladies Group that I lead on Wednesdays that I am starting to think that some of this is spiritual warfare because Wednesdays are a lot of times my worse days. And of course this is the day I lead Bible study.  So the ladies said a prayer over me at the end of the class.  How do you know what is warfare and what is nature of life?
How do you know what is consequence of your choices verses Gods will for your life at this particular time? These are deep things to think about. Like I tell my family, I have spent thousands of dollars with specialist, who still are not sure what is going on in my body, why do they think they have the answers, like maybe your not resting enough, duh! maybe its the food you eat, maybe your to stressed (because of them), maybe you need a positive attitude. I have heard it all and as I think over the harder questions I still am not sure. However the Bible says there is a season for everything.
Ecclesiastes 3
For everything there is a season,
    a time for every activity under heaven.
² A time to be born and a time to die.
    A time to plant and a time to harvest.
³ A time to kill and a time to heal.
    A time to tear down and a time to build up.
⁴ A time to cry and a time to laugh.
    A time to grieve and a time to dance.
⁵ A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
    A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
⁶ A time to search and a time to quit searching.
    A time to keep and a time to throw away.
⁷ A time to tear and a time to mend.
    A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
⁸ A time to love and a time to hate.
    A time for war and a time for peace.

Human Heart

After watching the sadness of the killing of these two innocent people. I have thought long and hard over this situation. I have heard it is a gun problem, wrong it is a heart problem. Murder was from the beginning of creation, with Cain & Able and there was no gun used there. This is a person who was mad in so many ways, mad at the world, mad in the mind, mad at himself and didn't know what to do about it. So instead of getting out of himself and thinking of others, he decided to take it out on somebody else instead of fixing his own self. Since we are a generation of selfie people, why else would he think to do something that doesn't think of himself first. We as the older generation have a responsibility to the younger to teach them. I was at the park with Harper and she is all about "I WON" in everything she does, she gets mad if she doesn't win. It brings back memories of her Aunt Audrey. So as she is running around winning every time, I took her aside and told her not everything is a competition and that sometimes you will lose and it is just as important on how you lose as how you win. As I overheard another grandmother say, thank you for telling me you hit so and so, did you tell them your sorry, no says the little boy, well at least you told me about it.  Why not make him go back and apologize. We have become so lazy when it comes to personal responsibility to others.  Its all about me..me..me..me. What happened yesterday was a pure hate crime. Hate will rot your insides, your mind, your heart, even your bones. I hate that we now have to pay attention to every person we meet  and watch to see what they are doing. You can't feel comfortable going to the grocery store I caught myself looking before I went into Big Lots at every person in there, or the DVM which would drive people to do crazy things, I looked at faces and paid attention to my surroundings. It has made me even more untrusting of people. Which to me is sad because that is a struggle of mine anyway. Jeremiah 17:9 The human heart is the most deceitful of all things, and desperately wicked. Who really knows how bad it is? ONLY GOD

Sickened...Also

After reading Cindy's post and seeing for myself the video of the Doctor talking about the "specimen" , it totally sickened me to. I decided to do a little research. For the life of me, I am trying to figure out why there are still so many abortions being done today. With free birth control, educating people on how you get pregnant. Its not like back in the 60's when sex was never discussed in schools. But after looking at some statics from North Carolina alone, did you know that between 2002 and 2013 that the average abortions per year is 26,233 babies aborted every year. That 74.6% were between the ages of 20-35 years of age.  These are not women who live in caves, they have  been to school to get education, they have watched enough TV to inform them on how you get pregnant, they can have free birth control. So I tried to think, what is this all about. MONEY, MONEY, MONEY.  The root of evil. People are making money on the killing of innocent babies and we as Christians have forgotten what is happening as we sit in our comfortable homes and comfortable churches. ME INCLUDED... I have recently because of this video realized how politically correct I have become by keeping quiet. 26,233 babies just in North Carolina alone have died and we worry about how so and so was rude to me, how our food took to long to get to us, what sales are on today. I myself need to rethink what I believe and start doing something about it.

Cindys Post

After reading my friend Cindy's post, I totally agree with her how the world is so backwards in its thinking. That Satan has tried to make sin look good and good look evil. This song when I first heard it made me realize that Satan can't have the Christian soul but he can mess a Christians life up. He is watching us and waiting to see our weak areas and uses things we like to bring about the "slow fade"( another great song). We can get so wrapped up in our life that we don't even see him invading it. We have let down our guard. The Bible says he is hear to kill, steal, and destroy those are not sweet words. Those are harsh, hateful words so we need to always be on guard.

I Timothy

Joey and I watch on Sunday mornings three different pastors before we go to church. They are each very different in personality and delivery but we appreciate all of them. First is the well know David Jeremiah, second is Michael Youseff, then there is a local pastor Michael Thomas from Love & Faith in Kernersville/Greensboro, they have two campuses. Sunday Pastor Youseff was preaching and he mentioned a verse and it stuck with me, mainly because Josh and I have been discussing money. As a teenager he has always said he wanted to be a millionaire by the time he was 25, but that didn't happen. We are always in discussion on the reasons behind why he thinks this way or that. I am always asking his motives behind being rich. When Pastor Youseff mention I Timothy 6:17-18 I read it in three different versions and stuck with this one, I printed it out for Josh to keep close, to  remind him when he does become a millionaire, what is expected.
"Teach those who are rich in this world not to be proud and not to trust in their money, which is so
unreliable. Their trust should be in God, who richly gives us all we need for our enjoyment. Tell them to use their money to do good. They should be rich in good works and generous to those in need, always being ready to share with others. By doing this they will be storing up their treasure as a good foundation for the future so that they may experience true life."
I know both sides of the story I hear from people, we should not have lots of money when so many others don't. We should have lots of money so that we can employ and help others. You can look it from both sides and see how both can be right. So I say, what ever lot you is, rich or poor. Remember that trusting in God is the most important thing and be generous with little or much so that you can experience true life.